Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Moving On OUT!

Yes, Yes, Yes!!! We are moving! After 14 years of living in this place I detest we are getting out of here! Yes we are only moving two blocks away but those two blocks mean a whole new life for my hubby and myself.

When we first moved here 14 years ago the townhouse complex was nice. We've had our odd, weird or even dangerous neighbor from time to time but they were usually gone before they became too much of a problem. This past few years however has been hell. The neighbors are those nasty, immature type with no life of their own so they feel the need to meddle in the lives of every one else. They take joy in causing problems for those around them. You know the ones that complain about everything. Well these ones in particular even make up crap about the neighbors and cause real problems by calling the police with false accusations just so they are the one to call the police first. It's actually hilarious but at the same time stressful because you are never certain if you will be the next on the list. These neighbors also fight constantly among themselves outside for every one to see. They yell, scream profanities, beat each other up. You name it these are nasty people. They have made living here a nightmare.

Of course there is also another reason we need to get out of here. This is where we spent most or our lives with our son, this is also the place he passed away. It's been almost three years and it's still hard to see his room sit empty. It's still really hard to walk past that door without all the memories surfacing. My husband suffers from PTSD and living here is really, really hard for him which in turn makes it really hard for me. So we came to the realization that we need to start anew.

This move is something we both need. This is a whole new chapter in our lives. All of our children have flown the nest. We don't need four bedrooms any more. I don't need to be running up the stairs to the bedrooms and down the stairs to do the laundry. I need things less complicated. We are moving into a two bedroom apartment in a duplex. We are on the ground floor and my daughter and her husband are on the top floor. We will have a huge yard (something we are lacking at the moment) and a big beautiful front porch. There is a large garden space to grow the vegetable garden we've been wanting to grow. Lots of space for us to create gorgeous flower gardens. A huge entry hallway for me to decorate for the seasons. In reality the apartment isn't much smaller than where we are living now and it's all on one floor! Woo Hoo! The landlord is also pretty easy to work with. He is allowing us to paint the whole place the colour of our choosing and he's pretty lenient as to allowing us to do decorative changes.

Yes I am very excited not only for the move but also for my weight loss surgery that is just around the corner. This is going to be a whole new start. I am hoping with this surgery that some of my pain and medical problems will disappear so I can go back to work. Don't get me wrong as much as I love babysitting my grand-daughter I just really need a larger pay-check. Hopefully hubby will start feeling better once we move and will get out of the slump he is in and will start feeling well enough to go back to work too. I have places to go, things to do and see that will require an income from both of us. So keep your fingers crossed and wish us luck on our new adventure.

We've only got two months to go. Our move date is October 1st. Woo Hoo!

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Monday, August 3, 2015

Making Changes and Playing the Waiting Game

I am trying desperately to continue to make changes to the foods i eat and my eating habits. I'm trying to teach myself to drink in slow, small sips instead of gulping my water which you cannot do after WLS. I am trying to teach myself to chew, chew, chew my food, yet another requirement after WLS.

It all sounds easy enough but isn't nearly as easy as you would think. You really need to keep yourself hydrated after surgery and because you cannot take in very much at a time that basically means sipping all day long. If you don't you could dehydrate very easily. I am so used to waiting until I'm really thirsty and then gulping down a bottle of water. It's been a habit for years and it's really hard to break. I'm also used to not really paying attention to how I chew my food. I just realized I only chew until my food is in a manageable size piece and I swallow. So I have lots of work to learn how to completely chew my food before I swallow and I should probably take smaller pieces to begin with.

I'm learning a lot about myself in the process and I'm not liking what I'm seeing. I have learned that although I know what a portion size is, I rarely ever eat just a portion. I also know that if it's a food I really enjoy I will eat way, way more than an acceptable portion and I will eat until I am way over full. I've also learned that I am a carb addict. My favorite things all include bread, pasta, rice and sweets. I am removing all of the previous items from my menu and the only carbs I will be eating will come from low carb fruits and veggies. The main portion of my diet will consist of protein. After WLS it will be protein first then if there is room in my newly formed stomach I can have the other stuff.

I'm impatiently waiting for all my appointments to be over with and my surgery to hurry along. There are still 24 days to my next appointment and it seems to be dragging so slowly. I am scared, nervous and excited all at the same time. I just wish it was all over with so I could get on with my new life. post signature